Never Quite Good Enough

Two very similar people in looks, but two completely different hearts. This causes us to crash in understanding and feeling. You are the reason I became a Christian and you have always been my biggest inspiration. But as I am growing as a Christian and continuing to find out more about myself, I'm starting to feel like I can't quite reach your standards. As weird as it sounds, I'm hurt by your heart. I'm hurt that my heart may not be in the same place as yours and it makes you mad. I feel like you see me as this person who doesn't understand what it means to really love God. I feel like when you look at me, you see me as a fake. A fake who is lost as a person. Well I'm not lost. I'm not Fake. and I'm CERTAINLY completely in love with the Lord. So please don't judge me, and don't whisper about me. And when I try and bring things up that are really important to me, DON'T bring me down. I will ALWAYS be there to support you and I would only hope for the same in return. I love you.....but I'm hurt. I'm hurt that I will never really be good enough in your eyes.