And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow
--HILLSONG UNITED
God has been so good to me. Why have I allowed all of this to consume my heart? I have a reason to worship. God has been good to me. He has showed me things these past few weeks that I have never seen before in my life. I don't really understand sometimes how I get so scared. I don't need a guy to make me happy and I definitely don't need one to complete my heart. How do I get sucked in? It just seems so pointless. Why are we all so scared to really let go and worship with all our hearts? It's almost like we are scared of what the other might think. THAT is not true fellowship. I want this new year to be something different. I'm in the middle of a transformation and I want my heart to truly be changed.
God, you are so beautiful. I'm sorry I give up and give in so many times. True love isn't found in a passionate kiss or complex fantasy of marriage and a family with the man you have always dreamed of. True love is the fact that you became human on this earth and died for ME. THAT is true love. I wanna be different, God. Show me how to be different.
You are beautiful, God.
