Falling in Love

There was a time, probably around the age of 13, when love seemed like an abstract thing that was so far out of reach. I remember thinking there was absolutely no way I could ever fall in love. I longed for somebody to make me happy, somebody to tell me I was beautiful, and somebody that loved every single thing about me. When I didn't meet anybody that could meet those requirements, I figured love did not exist. 

The weird thing about love is that it is always changing. Well, not really changing...but growing. As I grew older and started dating, each guy seemed better than the last (well, sometimes). I remember thinking I was so in love and that life could not go on without that person. BOY was I wrong. I have realized in my first semester of college, that the only kind of love that never fails, and always fulfills me in every way, is the love of the Lord. I really and truly believe that there is no way I can genuinely fall in love unless I have fallen in love with God first. Although I feel I haven't quite reached that point 100%, I know that my love is growing. I am so excited for the day I meet my husband. The day I realize that God picked out this wonderful guy who is crazy about me. Not just crazy about me, but crazy about the Lord. In fact, I will know it's my husband because he will be attracted to Christ's love that I hope to show in everything I do. 

Even though some of my past relationships have been rough, complicated, and somewhat dependent, I know my next relationship will be amazing. I know this because I have learned so much. I have learned that my life and my relationships with people are completely pointless without God's love. 

So to my heavenly Father, do not stop pursuing me...for I am falling completely and utterly in love with you. I am looking forward to days to come because I know that this love will never fail, but only grow. And to my future husband, I can't wait to meet you. I can't wait to embrace the love the Lord has given you to give to me.